OK, I've been away a while, about a year, in which time I confess that I have eaten anything I like and done essentially no excercise. In this time I have gone from the 90 kg I got down to, to 106.9 kg today. I knew I had out on about that much weight, but I did not know the actual number. Those scales had a year of dust on them this morning...So it was a HUGE step to get on and actually quantify the challenge. (You'll remember I was 128kg and over nearly 18 months I got to 90kg). So I have still lost a lot of weight, but i now need to stop and go down again.
Why the hell did I do this? Lose and then gain (some, not all of the weight), I chose to. I chose the wine, the chips, the extra portions. I stayed on my butt. At first it was interesting to see that I stayed looking really good ( thought I looked pretty good at 90 kg!). I ate what I liked. The higher metabolisim I'd created, worked for several weeks, even months I think. So in hindsight I have learnt from this experiment that something "bad" is not going to kill you or throw you off for life, if you eat well and excercise, it's OK!!!! So maybe that is a good life lesson.
Why am I starting again today, what has caused me to finally take action? Not my husband saying 'you need to do your walking again" - euphemisim for get off your fat butt and lose some weight...The crunch moment was yesterday at 2 minutes to 3, needing to pick the kids up from school, I dove into my wardrobe for a clean top and threw on the top I'd brought last year. It seemed very snug..?! I looked in the mirror and the buttons were hugely straining apart, arms stretched to nth degree. It was totally unwearable and about 2 sizes way too small. I wondered how I could have possibly fitted it last year and I knew this was the big WAKEUP CALL. I could hardly get it off, my arms were pinioned in place by it like a strait jacket.I had to peel it off very slowly and carefully, so I did not rip it! At that point I knew the game was up. I am running out of clothes. I gave away my fat clothes and now most of my new "slimmer clothes" don't fit. I'm doing my old trick of wearing my long trackpants (that stech up to 130 kgs of me!) all the time, even on hot summer days and I am getting so hot wearing winter pants in summer!My size 18 pants, I have not worn for more than six months, I bet they will not fit. I'll try them on to see but I think they were about a 100 kg or just below victory.
So lots to plan. I know how to do this, I've done it before. I have the roadmap. (Thanks to Coah Rylan and Fat Loss Project!). I will write my food and exercise down in my "book" as transcribing it onto here just wastes time really, as long as I write it down. But I will blog everyday. I need to get to the groceries soon and buy my healthy whole foods again, goodbye bread!! Thank God. Bread is one of those things I ate a lot of, and my bread consumption lately as going up and up! I was eating 6-8 pieces of horrible Pams Multigrain with butter and thousand island sauce on it. Bread makes me sleepy and tired. Low energy/tired makes you feel depressed. Whereas as a real food salad for lunch with a protein like chicken or fish with it, make me feel so alive! It is important to eat every 3 hours for me. So I just had my yoghurt and berries for 10 am morning tea. Breakfast was whole oat porridge, with ground flax seed and a whole apple grated into it when cooked, yum! I was out of almonds but will eat those later when I get the shopping.
So I am on track! Only thing I have not done is my excercise. But just for today, I will do the food and get my head in this place, get some emotional support around me and add the excercise in tommorow. Logistically I need to get my food for lunch and grill the chicken etc. So this is PRE DAY, tommorow is Day One.
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