Cooolllll! Down from start of 106.9 16 days ago to 103.9!! Whoa...that is blowing me away. I've been using my FLP menus for healthy whole foods and a bit of exercise, not much..need to improve! I decided to be kinder to myself this time and allow the odd treat whereas in the past I've been very black and white and driven, terrified the smallest morsel will put me back to my old weight somehow or that I would lose the plot and go back to my bad eating. But now I knwo I can trust I wont. I've had the odd coffee, some wine, strawberries dipped in chocolate (instead of the cream puffs) and it's been so good, and I still lost weight!
So I'm drinking lots of water, breakfast! (this had slipped..so bad for the metabolism), 3 meals a day plus 2 - 3 snacks, i usually drop snack 3 after dinner or add it to lunch if i'm hungry as I rarely ever hungry after dinner. Lots of salads for lunch with tuna or chicken and a piece of fruit. Today I'm doing a really nice Mexican bean salad with tuna for lunch, mmmm!
So I am really rapt with progress and happy that I can have a few seasonal extras (if I feel like it) and still lose weight - wonderful!
I have also ordered a DVD called HypnoDiet which I have heard great things about. For me the mind connection is so critical. if you have not "clicked" in your head, it wont work. Only $30 so cheaper than a session with a real live hypnotherapist.
Finally the size 18 pants are back on my butt! Yay! I was forced back into the old trackies there for a while. Nice to wear nicer clothes again and cooler as well if I can wear tank tops and not feel I need to cover up in winter tops.
Got some inspiration too from Ajay from Biggest Loser, who was a huge 130 + kilos and now has just done a swimsuit shoot and looks gorgeous, curvy, Marilyn style, real woman. Wow, I can really see my head on her body, what a great image to use!
So all is so very well, Merry Christmas to all!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
FLP Day one
Well bit angry with the excercise. Did not enjoy it, as I always did. After nearly no excercise for a year bar a bit of walking, the FLP cardio and strength excercises have me sweating again and hating every minute. I could not do the three reps, only did one circuit. I am so much unfitter than I thought. I could still do pushups, but the benchdips I failed at 4 and then at 7, tricep not so good anymore, need to get back to Pump.I'm annoyed at myself for not feeling committed enough to push it through but I also dont want to have a heart attck and i could feel my fitness was just not there at all (well like it was).
I had bad thoughts of wanting a quick fix, a surgical option, so I am blogging to get my head round this. Maybe I need to be kind and take it more slow, than I did FLP the first time. I do love the food though. And I will lose weight and cms. So in order to build my fitness more, I think I will ahve to increase to two reps in week 2 and three reps the following, so take three weeks to do week one as I rebuild the fitness.
I am not in a big rush, a kilo a month would be OK, 2 would be better.
Woozy from 11 am yesterday and then led to a massive headache last night, I am guesing caffeine withdrawl. Head ache this mornign again, but smaller, took more Panadol, seems to have cleafred dont know if it was the excercise or the Panadol, or both.
Time for yoggie and berries and collapse...
I had bad thoughts of wanting a quick fix, a surgical option, so I am blogging to get my head round this. Maybe I need to be kind and take it more slow, than I did FLP the first time. I do love the food though. And I will lose weight and cms. So in order to build my fitness more, I think I will ahve to increase to two reps in week 2 and three reps the following, so take three weeks to do week one as I rebuild the fitness.
I am not in a big rush, a kilo a month would be OK, 2 would be better.
Woozy from 11 am yesterday and then led to a massive headache last night, I am guesing caffeine withdrawl. Head ache this mornign again, but smaller, took more Panadol, seems to have cleafred dont know if it was the excercise or the Panadol, or both.
Time for yoggie and berries and collapse...
Thursday, December 2, 2010
New start, the big WAKE UP CALL
OK, I've been away a while, about a year, in which time I confess that I have eaten anything I like and done essentially no excercise. In this time I have gone from the 90 kg I got down to, to 106.9 kg today. I knew I had out on about that much weight, but I did not know the actual number. Those scales had a year of dust on them this morning...So it was a HUGE step to get on and actually quantify the challenge. (You'll remember I was 128kg and over nearly 18 months I got to 90kg). So I have still lost a lot of weight, but i now need to stop and go down again.
Why the hell did I do this? Lose and then gain (some, not all of the weight), I chose to. I chose the wine, the chips, the extra portions. I stayed on my butt. At first it was interesting to see that I stayed looking really good ( thought I looked pretty good at 90 kg!). I ate what I liked. The higher metabolisim I'd created, worked for several weeks, even months I think. So in hindsight I have learnt from this experiment that something "bad" is not going to kill you or throw you off for life, if you eat well and excercise, it's OK!!!! So maybe that is a good life lesson.
Why am I starting again today, what has caused me to finally take action? Not my husband saying 'you need to do your walking again" - euphemisim for get off your fat butt and lose some weight...The crunch moment was yesterday at 2 minutes to 3, needing to pick the kids up from school, I dove into my wardrobe for a clean top and threw on the top I'd brought last year. It seemed very snug..?! I looked in the mirror and the buttons were hugely straining apart, arms stretched to nth degree. It was totally unwearable and about 2 sizes way too small. I wondered how I could have possibly fitted it last year and I knew this was the big WAKEUP CALL. I could hardly get it off, my arms were pinioned in place by it like a strait jacket.I had to peel it off very slowly and carefully, so I did not rip it! At that point I knew the game was up. I am running out of clothes. I gave away my fat clothes and now most of my new "slimmer clothes" don't fit. I'm doing my old trick of wearing my long trackpants (that stech up to 130 kgs of me!) all the time, even on hot summer days and I am getting so hot wearing winter pants in summer!My size 18 pants, I have not worn for more than six months, I bet they will not fit. I'll try them on to see but I think they were about a 100 kg or just below victory.
So lots to plan. I know how to do this, I've done it before. I have the roadmap. (Thanks to Coah Rylan and Fat Loss Project!). I will write my food and exercise down in my "book" as transcribing it onto here just wastes time really, as long as I write it down. But I will blog everyday. I need to get to the groceries soon and buy my healthy whole foods again, goodbye bread!! Thank God. Bread is one of those things I ate a lot of, and my bread consumption lately as going up and up! I was eating 6-8 pieces of horrible Pams Multigrain with butter and thousand island sauce on it. Bread makes me sleepy and tired. Low energy/tired makes you feel depressed. Whereas as a real food salad for lunch with a protein like chicken or fish with it, make me feel so alive! It is important to eat every 3 hours for me. So I just had my yoghurt and berries for 10 am morning tea. Breakfast was whole oat porridge, with ground flax seed and a whole apple grated into it when cooked, yum! I was out of almonds but will eat those later when I get the shopping.
So I am on track! Only thing I have not done is my excercise. But just for today, I will do the food and get my head in this place, get some emotional support around me and add the excercise in tommorow. Logistically I need to get my food for lunch and grill the chicken etc. So this is PRE DAY, tommorow is Day One.
Why the hell did I do this? Lose and then gain (some, not all of the weight), I chose to. I chose the wine, the chips, the extra portions. I stayed on my butt. At first it was interesting to see that I stayed looking really good ( thought I looked pretty good at 90 kg!). I ate what I liked. The higher metabolisim I'd created, worked for several weeks, even months I think. So in hindsight I have learnt from this experiment that something "bad" is not going to kill you or throw you off for life, if you eat well and excercise, it's OK!!!! So maybe that is a good life lesson.
Why am I starting again today, what has caused me to finally take action? Not my husband saying 'you need to do your walking again" - euphemisim for get off your fat butt and lose some weight...The crunch moment was yesterday at 2 minutes to 3, needing to pick the kids up from school, I dove into my wardrobe for a clean top and threw on the top I'd brought last year. It seemed very snug..?! I looked in the mirror and the buttons were hugely straining apart, arms stretched to nth degree. It was totally unwearable and about 2 sizes way too small. I wondered how I could have possibly fitted it last year and I knew this was the big WAKEUP CALL. I could hardly get it off, my arms were pinioned in place by it like a strait jacket.I had to peel it off very slowly and carefully, so I did not rip it! At that point I knew the game was up. I am running out of clothes. I gave away my fat clothes and now most of my new "slimmer clothes" don't fit. I'm doing my old trick of wearing my long trackpants (that stech up to 130 kgs of me!) all the time, even on hot summer days and I am getting so hot wearing winter pants in summer!My size 18 pants, I have not worn for more than six months, I bet they will not fit. I'll try them on to see but I think they were about a 100 kg or just below victory.
So lots to plan. I know how to do this, I've done it before. I have the roadmap. (Thanks to Coah Rylan and Fat Loss Project!). I will write my food and exercise down in my "book" as transcribing it onto here just wastes time really, as long as I write it down. But I will blog everyday. I need to get to the groceries soon and buy my healthy whole foods again, goodbye bread!! Thank God. Bread is one of those things I ate a lot of, and my bread consumption lately as going up and up! I was eating 6-8 pieces of horrible Pams Multigrain with butter and thousand island sauce on it. Bread makes me sleepy and tired. Low energy/tired makes you feel depressed. Whereas as a real food salad for lunch with a protein like chicken or fish with it, make me feel so alive! It is important to eat every 3 hours for me. So I just had my yoghurt and berries for 10 am morning tea. Breakfast was whole oat porridge, with ground flax seed and a whole apple grated into it when cooked, yum! I was out of almonds but will eat those later when I get the shopping.
So I am on track! Only thing I have not done is my excercise. But just for today, I will do the food and get my head in this place, get some emotional support around me and add the excercise in tommorow. Logistically I need to get my food for lunch and grill the chicken etc. So this is PRE DAY, tommorow is Day One.
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